Have you ever wanted something SO badly? For me, it is A FREAKING BABY!

All i want to do is be a mother. And give Ben a baby. I want to give him the gift of fatherhood so badly. I feel horrible that my duty as a wife (starting a family), I can not fulfill. I am still struggling to see God's plan for us. I want to see it so bad. Why did God choose Ben and I to struggle with this for 3+ years? I mean i know it says God won't give you anything you can't handle, but i'm starting to wonder.... I think God thinks i am way stronger than i am...

Sorry for the vent, just really feeling it today.

Side note: Please be in prayer for the following ladies in our Support Group (and a few others):

E.C. - Pregnant! Pray for safe and healthy preg/delivery

E.S. - Praying about Surrogacy

T.K. - Currently doing IUI, testing SOON!

L.M. - Break time

N.B. - Trying, Trying, Trying

J.V. - Pursuing an IUI

A.C. - Fostering, in pursuit of own pregnancy, possible adoption

M.L. - Failed IUI, praying for direction

A.E. - Starting IVF in November