Our Story

Our Story....


It all began in 2008. My Husband and I decided to 'start trying'.


I knew we would have problems as I have never had a 'regular' period. What's regular anyway?


Right? Anywho, we tried by ourselves for about 6 months and I couldnt take it ANYMORE! (Might i add, i am extremely Type A and want what i want when i want) We decided to go to the OB. I made the appointement and went to see my sweet Dr. She told me 'Oh Hunny, you are only 20, i can get you pregnant in 6 months.' I JUMPED FOR JOY! So 6 mos (to the day) i went back. I saw my oh so sweet Dr again and said 'it's been 6 months'. We were trying BC for those 6 months (which doesnt that kind of seem like defeating the purpose?). So we did a Vaginal Ultrasound and found out i had the 'string of pearls' around both my ovaries.... so she sent me for more testing. This is when i found out i had PCOS. (For more info on that, please see http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0001408/). I did EXTREME research and freaked myself out. I mean CYSTS ON MY OVARIES?!?! OVARIAN DRILLING?!?! CHANCE OF NOT GETTING PREGNANT??! OVARIAN CANCER?!?! GENETIC?!?!


AAAGGGGHHHH I literally FREAKED, as i looked at worst case senario.


My Dr and I decided it was time for my Husband i to transfer to a RE. We prayed and prayed asking God for direction. Clinging to 'Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.' (Philippians 4:6-7)


We decided on a RE, and made an appointment to meet with him. My Husband wouldnt be able to wiggle his way out of this appointment! We met with Dr.B and did another VU and did more glucose testing and again determined i had PCOS. He was so sweet and sat with us while i cried hysterically. Again, he told us 'I can get you pregnant in 6 months.' (Long story short) we tried BC, Glucophage, Provera, Clomid, Byetta Pen, etc (all multiple times) with NO SUCCESS. A year later we decided to take a break. I couldn't handle the emotional stress and ALL THE FREAKING PILLS AND SHOTS any longer! I remember one night laying in my bathroom floor sick (thanks clomid), crying my eyes out. I couldnt take this anymore.
This is when I searched for a Support Group. Lo and behold, there are VERY few in Jax. WHAT?!?! Why when there are 7.3 million women who are dealing with Infertility are we not booming with SG's? Anywhoo, I visited several. Not one did i come away feeling encouraged. And that is SAD. When i picture a Support Group, i picture leaving HAPPY and ENCOURAGED knowing that we will eventually come thru this (pending God's plan). So i decided to take this challenge and run with it (mainly to distract myself). Ladies, I tell you Facebook is an AMAZING resource. I put on FB 'I am infertile and need women to talk to'. You would NOT believe the number of people that commented or messaged me saying they went (or are going) thru this too! I was SHOCKED! I was expecting one, maybe two responses. It was unfathomable.
So we decided to meet one night at Panera, that's where it all started. It was amazing. It was a great time of talking, crying, loving, encouraging and most of all praying. It was so amazing to know women who are dealing with the same sadness,hurt,shamefulness,emptiness as me! Who knew?! Anyway, I say all that to say this. If you are going thru Infertility (primary or secondary) don't be the 60% who stay 'hush hush' about this. SAY SOMETHING. It really helps to be apart of a group where you can come and be encouraged and in return encourage others.

Trust me, i know how much INFERTILITY SUCKS! I am praying for every woman who is dealing with Infertility. I am praying for God's plan and will for your life (and mine).
As for B and I, we are praying and pursuing Adoption! (Stay tuned for more on that).

If you would like to chat with me one on one, please feel free to email me at benkatierice@gmail.com

XOXO